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(our endless numbered days)
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[30 Jan 2005|04:33pm] |
it's been a couple months and, well,
my life got so good that i forgot about livejournal
you can contact me via
aim: angela oxygen
email: againstforgetting@hotmail.com
phone: (480) 650.7648
there's a few of you who i actually care about so i might read this every once in a while, but for the most part, i'm done (& have been for quite some time)
ok that's all, goodbye
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| GEORGE W |
[13 Oct 2004|11:56am] |
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tonight i'm going to see the president of the united states of america! hopefully he is as cute in person as he is on television. and yes i'm voting for him.
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| "do not be afraid" |
[08 Oct 2004|12:47am] |
i used to always say my life wouldn't be complete until i saw the microphones play. now that it i've seen him once in chicago and three times in arizona, i just need to say for the millionth time that phil elverum is so amazing. some of my favorite songs he played over the last few days were the "who was it that got stabbed here.." song, solar system, universe, samurai sword, cold mountain, antlers, great ghosts, we squirm, i cut my hands off, and more. wowwww
tonight was absolutely perfect. no one could see but i had a huge smile on my face while singing along in the dark with my favorite musician. thank you everyone, thank you phil. i am so happy.
some people say
arise! arise! arise! live friend live!
i say: die
i say: shade yourself
i say: shine what precious light you have into caves,
and when it dies out stay in there
i say find life where you foolishly saw graves
some people say to try and try and try!
fight and save yourself!
i say: give
i say send them off
i say shed whatever husk if you are ripe,
and if you're not, be fragrant then
i say: give. no matter how it hurts, give in!
some people say the sky! the sky! the sky!
have you noticed it
i close my eyes, i say nothing now.
there's a ringing in my ears that's faint and high,
and when i listen close to it, it says:
"..."
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[27 Sep 2004|07:54pm] |
everything in my room reminds me of clint. he'll be home in 11 months, and i can't wait to hang out with him again.
i'll be seeing the microphones THREE TIMES next week! if that doesn't lift my spirits, i don't know what will.
you were in the air
but i picked you up
you're on the ground
i lost it
you're a cloud formed from my breath (or a plastic bag in wind)
a ghost from in my dream (dreams of us in beautiful scenes)
i reached for your hand
to show you beautiful scenes
but there was nothing there
i was reaching for air
oh, you don't exist
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| 18! |
[25 Sep 2004|02:53pm] |
dear hannah fay dreamboat,
happy birthday !
hope your day is wonderful. i love you!
love, angela
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| part 2: anacortes has a secret love (me too) |
[16 Sep 2004|11:47pm] |
this week i've actually been doing homework, going to the gym, & having a lot of quality alone time. i'm not sure how to deal with some things happening in my life, but thankfully i have countless blessings to bring me peace & comfort. tonight i ended up at the secret freeway overpass & remembered all the things i wanted to say but never did.
my old town never lets me down
things change but anacortes has a secret love
night time, cars are passing by
i'm here, happy by myself
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| part 1: explanation /heartache |
[11 Sep 2004|01:17pm] |
over the past year or two, i've reached the conclusion that every aspect of my life can be summed up by a different microphones song. so if that's all i post from now on, you'll know why.
quickly forgetting, was the way i lived my life
try telling me your name, try telling me don't worry
everything i knew it quickly wither and die
oh echoes would be buried in the sound
oh the living the sound of feet slapping sidewalk
that was me treasure hunting, i would bury what i found
that was me gold digger, under ground
quickly forgotten, was this forgetful way of life
when i left home, when i lived as if i had died
sitting on a rock and doing nothing
alone for so long, and in the dark i found my sight
there your name was, large in letters bright
there my faith was, worry not declared the night
the great void of my life, i could feel the shape of what was missing
like the way the wooly mammoth would stand so bold and
our minds were shaken, at the size of my cry
and true love it described
i know day is dawning now, so ends my holy night
it's back to the world i go, back to the girls and the shows
and the worldly woes, there are unfrilly the clothes
and i carry myself slowly myself, to remember
i sit on a dark rock doing nothing, still just crowded in
there's the love in flesh and bones
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[31 Aug 2004|05:34pm] |
here's a little story, and everyone better feel bad for me dangit:
so last week i got the air conditioner in my car fixed - $700
a few days later, i find out it needs a new thermostat & more - $200
i'm out $900, that sucks, whatever - at least i have a/c now, right?
well today at ASU i come out to my car to find a police officer waiting for me ... someone broke in, shattered the window, and ripped out the entire dash (cd player, air vents/controls, all of it). fortunately the idiot (i'm refraining from any racist remarks) wasn't smart enough to take the other valuables, and thankfully i don't bring my CDs in the car. for a while i even thought it was a little bit funny until i realized they cut all the electric wires and that my air conditioner is once again out of commission after i spent a thousand dollars on it.
i just got an estimate - $680, and that doesn't even include a stereo.
the point of my story is:
i'm poor,
no more shopping for a long long time,
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i want to move to new york or somewhere i don't even need a car to get around.
i'm sick of this. maybe i need a boyfriend to make me feel better.
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| cram & jam |
[18 Aug 2004|05:07pm] |
i'm finally back in arizona
i miss chicago but i love the people here
i don't really care about updating this anymore but i have exciting news:
christy gets married this weekend!
i start school on monday!
and the most exciting news of all...
i spent a lot of money today and bought myself what i've wanted for so long!
& this to go along with it
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmyes
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[09 Jun 2004|01:49am] |
After waiting so long, I finally got to see Phil Elverum play live. It was weird and surreal and I loved it. I met Donato and it was weird and cute and I loved it. I guess I hadn't thought about saying hello for the first time and goodbye forever all in one night. Maybe you're right, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and realize it was all a dream.
Other than that, I'm in Chicago surrounded by a lot of people that I struggle relating to yet still get along with. I work a lot and stay up too late. I don't remember the last time I was this sick...I keep losing my voice and don't worry, my head will probably explode before the week is over. Anyway, I live in a pretty suburb called Lisle and everything is green and beautiful. I'm a little homesick but things here are amazing. My favorite part of being here is the weekly trip(s) to downtown Chi-town.
( It's not meant to be a strife,
It's not meant to be a struggle uphill )
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| the times they are a'changin |
[26 May 2004|04:20pm] |
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I leave in two days. I'm anxious. I tried to start packing last night, but just ended up really depressed that my whole closet, or even one-fourth of it, is never going to fit into two suitcases. Atleast I have good shopping in Chicago to look forward to.
Work has been busy, as I've been typing up detailed descriptions of everything I do here for the new girl that starts next week. My paycheck is going to be huge tomorrow, plus I just made $250 making powerpoint slides for a therapist here. I type faster than you.
My mom made my favorite Pasta Milano for dinner yesterday in celebration of me leaving. She is going to miss me, and I'll miss her and her cooking. I went to the Hardisons for the second time this week, got Clint's letter, and saw about 200 pictures of him. I love that family!
Tonight I'm going to Mountain View's graduation to see some friends (a.k.a. STEPHEN POLIZZATTO). Then I'll do some last minute hanging out with Adell, Bonny, Katy, Hannah, Sabrina, not Shane, and whoever. Tomorrow night I have to finish (start) packing.
I'm going to miss a lot of things this summer, but the Arizona heat is not one of them. I love acting like I'm never coming back to this place, when actually I'll be here for school in 3 months (unless of course I get attacked and killed while exploring the city). Sometimes I wonder if I should really be going, but then I wonder why on earth not. This is just a long vacation. I want to go swimming in Lake Michigan, I want to be homiez with some black people, I want to find good art galleries, I want to stay up late and listen to the city. I want to do a lot of things while I'm there and I just hope I have the time for it. Did I mention I'm anxious to get out of here?
Anyway, this is probably my last update for quite awhile. Goodbye.
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[18 May 2004|04:09pm] |
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I'm pretty sure that most people are unaware of how funny I am. Maybe weird is a better way to describe it, but the fact remains...I will make you laugh, especially if it's late at night.
I like boys.
Work has been terrible today, and it really makes me glad that I'm leaving soon. I am sick of people taking advantage of me.
( I'm going to Chicago )
The only thing I'm not excited for is the humidity.
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[12 May 2004|09:50am] |
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Okay, MAJOR change of summer plans.
I'M MOVING TO CHICAGO.
That's probably the strangest sentence I've ever typed, and I won't believe it until I'm actually there. I have been presented with an incredible summer job opportunity working with a good friend. Plane tickets paid for, apartment paid for, making around 3 times as much as I do now, you name it.
If everything goes right(which it probably won't - welcome to my life), I'll be there in about 2.5 weeks. The major problem is that I have to quit my job (harder than it sounds because the other two employees left for summer too), and I can't even talk to my boss about it until tomorrow. I also won't be doing my summer school or any of the other things I had planned on for the next few months.
I was up all night thinking about it. It's something I can't pass up and I think it will be really good for me - to get away and experience something new. I might hate it. I've never been to Chicago, I've never lived on my own. While *there is a chance that none of this is going to happen, I can still say that it's the scariest thing I've ever done (or planned on doing) and I couldn't be more excited.
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| the way i deux |
[11 May 2004|01:11pm] |
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LOOK AT WHAT THE LIGHT DID NOW.
my left arm is now atleast 3 shades darker than my right arm, from driving around in this summer sun. yes its noticeable, yes i look half black, and yes its hilarious.
at about 7:30 pm, i will be officially done with this semester.
i have many good things to do from now until august. i'll be working from 8-5 five days a week. i'll be staying up late, waking up early, and sleeping at my desk. i'll be reading the stack of books next to my bed. i'll be watching all those movies i've been anxious to see. i'll be hanging out with the boy my mom is afraid i'm falling in love with (haha nope). i'll be spending as much time with my best friends as possible. i'll just be happy and i'll laugh even more than i do now.
i bought the new magnetic fields cd i today. sounds like its gonna be good but i've heard otherwise.
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today was the last day of school. i have a few finals next week. is it just me, or did this semester go by really fast?
i'm definitely looking forward to summer because i'm going to (a) work alot and get RICH, and (b) work out alot and get BUFF. yes!
ok hahah this is great...MENUDO's comin back
http://entertainment.msn.com/music/article.aspx?news=157147
in 7th grade señora frenzel used to make us listen to menudo. she was really creepy
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[29 Apr 2004|01:20pm] |
what-the-heck fest
anacortes, washington
july 15-18
http://www.knw-yr-own.com
I'M GOING!(somehow) and staying(somewhere) in washington for a week.
mmmmmm seriously...
p.s. hey EVERYONE minus me, have fun at coachella this weekend!
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| epitaph for my heart |
[28 Apr 2004|11:32am] |
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"caution: to prevent electric shock, do not remove cover. no user-serviceable parts inside. refer servicing to qualified service personnel." let this be the epitaph for my heart. cupid put too much poison in the dart. this is the epitaph for my heart because it's gone, gone, gone; and life goes on and on and on; and death goes on. world without end, and you're not my friend.
SCHOOL IS ALMOST OVER
i'm going to stereolab tomorrow night!
& old time relijun friday night(hopefully)
it is impossible for me to know my own feelings when i care so much about what my close friends and family say. i know, i know that's not good. and i know i should probably be more careful about certain things, but sometimes it just doesn't matter to me. i never expected it to be this way but i'll admit it's pretty fun. life goes on.
oh, and i got a raise at work, thank you very much.
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[24 Apr 2004|04:34pm] |
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this has been my desktop picture for probably a few months now. sometimes i catch myself staring at it, remembering. i like it almost as much as i like the funny picture of me kissing him on the cheek.
I MISS THOSE SHOES
I MISS THAT KID
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[21 Apr 2004|04:55pm] |
i'm really anxious for school to end. not anxious as in i have something to do this summer other than work, but anxious as in i'm sick of drawing lines and painting shapes. i have so much to do, and not enough time.
i went on a date or two last weekend with a boy named shane. he moved here from a small "village" in new mexico and talking to him makes me laugh way too much. he uses the word "tell" instead of "ask" (tell her if she's going to come), and always asks "for why?" it's really so cute.
i was planning on going to new york to visit nate, but finals and my sister&brother's college graduation and work all got in the way. i'm going up to showlow this weekend with katy sabrina and hannah. ladies- we should make it a camping trip.
my boss gave me flowers for 'administrative professionals day'!
oh and somebody remind me, WHY am i not going to coachella?
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| to be infinite, leap into the void. |
[15 Apr 2004|01:41pm] |
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3.5 weeks later, and i'm back. my answering machine has said that i'm "out of order" until april 15th while i finished my design portfolio & application. unfortunately that means i'm now functioning properly, and i have no excuses for avoiding phone calls or staying home. just kidding; the truth is, i've missed my normal life.
despite my attempts at being anti-social and almost defunct, much has occurred since my last entry. the following things are particularly noteworthy:
& i bought and love two magnificent cds: blonde redhead - misery is a butterfly and iron&wine - our endless, numbered days
& i had to pay taxes ... ridiculous
& i woke up one sunday to find boys camping in my front yard, haha
& my friend brenner left on his mission to brazil
& my best friend adell started interior design school
& i realized (once again) just how grateful i am to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints
& i love my family more and more every day
& katy bought me a "grow your own boyfriend" toy!
& i noticed that the microphones are scheduled to play in provo on june 18th; utah here i come
& i spent entirely too much money making copies of my projects and drawings (atleast $100)
& i finished my application packet and my portfolio without dying first
& i honestly convinced myself that everything happens for a reason, and it will all work out
all i have to do today is go to school and turn everything in. i don't even have to go to work! i think i'll just make up for my lost sleep. yayaayayyayyy I'M DONE (although i still have tons to do for finals) and i couldn't be more relieved.
clint's emails today were great. elder hardison is quite the missionary.
okay, i'm really looking forward to spending time with my friends this weekend.
( yo )
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